Lately I've been able to relax a little bit/not be so stressed out but the one constant that hasn't gone away is my job. I don't mind it so much for the time being; I don't get depressed once I'm at the office until it starts getting dark outside (think I might have a touch of seasonal depression). But I realized I feel the same way about my current job that I did about my first job out of college.
The one I had out of college was for a Japanese company which had opened their first US branch office. I worked there for 3 years and was miserable from about the midpoint. Mostly it was because the company was hugely in debt, firing the other employees left and right and I had NO WORK to do. I was in grad school by then though so I just kept looking to the future and planned to leave that job once I had my degree. But the fact that I went into that office day after day, week after week, for NO PURPOSE was pretty demoralizing. I had already spent the first 2 years or so listening to the other employees constantly complaining about the fate of the company and their horrible positions/pay/bosses etc. It was hard to keep up any hope of enjoying my job.
I'm really hopeful that once my contract is over I'll be able to do something I really enjoy, whether or not it's with this company or a university or another company. I actually had a whole entry planned to write yesterday evening but I seem to have forgotten most of what I wanted to write about. I'm doing this at work too and the phone keeps ringing interrupting my thoughts... :P
Argh, I just realized I asked someone in our NY office to do something by the end of this week but got their out of office message meaning no one's there because it's Thanksgiving and the office is closed now! And I told the agent they'd do it by Friday. Poo.
I went on another week+ long business trip recently which some of you probably know about. I took some pictures...
Group pic of the group I was traveling with (sorry for the darkness; they didn't pick a very good spot for this) taken in southern Florida

Left to Right: Rachel (from our Korea office), Jessica (client from Taiwan), Saori (client from Japan), Jiny (client from Korea), Atsuko (from our Japan office), Junko (client from Japan), myself, Tiffany (from our Taiwan office) and Lawrence (client from Taiwan).
Rachel, the one looking all cool in her shades on the left, would later go on to run over her foot with her own luggage breaking her pinky toe (according to the x-rays when she got back to Korea) and the very next morning walk smack into a window in the lobby thinking it was an open doorway. The bump and mark on her forehead lasted two days. Seriously, the few clients and myself who witnessed this last incident could not stop laughing for about 10 minutes straight. Even though we could see she had really banged her head hard it was just too funny. Poor girl. Even her husband laughed his butt off when she arrived home this past weekend. ^_^
Tiffany, standing to my left in the pic, spent 5hrs with me walking all over midtown/5th ave the previous Sunday in an intense shopping spree that only ended after she scoured the Coach store on Madison Ave and purchased a $500 purse.
Atsuko, in the middle with the large shoulder bag, was occupied the whole trip with our 2 Japanese VIP clients so didn't have near as much fun as the rest of us. :P
It was WONDERFUL to be back in NYC though! I had arrived on Friday the 13th and spent all day Saturday and Sunday shopping!!! Imagine stores with floors full of racks of clothes and hardly a size 0 in sight! I have never bought so much as I did that weekend. And as a result I ended up paying $150 in overweight fees for the following three flights during the trip... It was all worth it though. Macy's was not as crowded as it usually is and I had a very pleasant time. Outside at night time, I was reminded of just how romantic the city can feel sometimes.

(Of course, as soon as I returned home to Tokyo, I popped in Miracle on 34th Street!)
And walking through the neighborhoods of brownstone Brooklyn, I gazed at the fallen leaves crunching under my feet, the depressed pumpkin remnants from Halloween on some front stoops and smelled the smoke from a few wood burning fireplaces. In the dark of evening, I slowed my walk as I peeped into the parlor floor windows of the magnificent homes in the area and dreamed of having my own some day. It was heaven. I only wish J had been there with me. But it has helped me cope with being stuck in Japan for the next 10 months. I am more determined than ever to get back to Brooklyn ASAP and get our OWN place right away.
Well, I had better wrap it up for now. I have a sales report to complete today. Must not dawdle.